Believing in myself… Sometimes it is a raging battle, who is going to win ? The little monkey on my shoulder or my inner strength?


On Thursday night I went for a girlie’s night out at a locale Auberge and it was lovely to see my friends. Especially since we do not see each other very often. And of course, when you haven’t seen each other for a while, what do you talk about? well, on what you have been up to these past few months…

The discussion was flowing, we were enjoying a glass of wine and our meal when the discussion turned to what I had been up to. So I explained that I was looking at ways to make money on line and to, hopefully, resign from my job by the end of the year and to start a new life with financial independence. I told them I had started writing a blog and that I was really enjoying it and actually finding that it was helping me a lot on staying focused and motivated in what I was doing. I also told them of my ultimate goal to create a foundation or a charity  when I would have enough money to make a difference.

They listened to what I was saying but I could already see all the objections and remarks which were going to follow…

They thought I was completely unrealistic, that even being self-employed would give me more headaches than being employed, that I would never make enough money to make a living out of it and that I should work for a charity instead of creating one (but I’ve done that, haven’t I, I worked for 10 years with the International Committee of the Red Cross). They didn’t get the concept of a digital lifestyle, the opportunity offered by being in a good affiliate program with high ticket commissions as well as residual commissions.

I suddenly felt very alone…

My little monkey was very happy and very much alive, whispering in my ear, “they are right you know, you’ll never make it, you’re not good enough to succeed in this market, you’ll never be consistent, you’ll stop before you can do anything, you’ll never make any money, who would want to be interested in what you promote?” etc. etc. You get the picture (see my previous blog on my audience and the XFactor).

I was a bit down after that evening, and I don’t blame my friends at all, they cannot have the “vision” as they do not have this burning gut desire to succeed in something different. They are content with their life, one is a happy mother, they have successful careers and loving partners. I know that all their advices were given because they care about me and they don’t want to see me hurt once more. It is so difficult  to explain to people outside of the digital world how it could work and how someone can succeed in it. They just do not understand, and usually, things people do not understand frighten them.

That night just made me realise how important it is to keep faith in one-self. If I was not so motivated at being successful online I would probably let all these self-doubts eating me up and I would find a very quick excuse not to pursue what I am doing now. But deep down, in my inner-self, I know I CAN DO IT. And actually, writing this blog is helping me so much in keeping my self-confidence, the fact that 100 and so people like what I am writing means that I must be doing something right :-).

Well Folks, another insight on my life lol. Let me know if you are also struggling with keeping faith in yourself and in what you are doing. Sharing one’s doubts definitely helps reduce them.